Allah juga Yang Maha Mengetahui...

Both of us received offer letters from UUM last semester..we did not register as postgraduates students last sem because we were "advice" to wait for the scholarship results...Few weeks ago, we received another offer letters from UUM asking us to register today..My husband did call the person incharge ( bargaining to allow us to do it locally) but as expected the answer is "NO". I am not in the mood to write about the reasons given because to me until today they failed to give us any concrete reasons..and their reasons keep on changing..but of course it seems and sounds o.k ( to them le..)because they have the power..

After 15 years in service..their actions really "hurt" me...Kalau I/we ada buat mistake yang nyata...then it is fine to punish us..but till this moment we failed to recall anything yang kitaorang buat salah...We did realise about the "double standard" decision made by them...at the same time we also realised that they have the power to do so...But just to point out ...to us "it is not a fare game at all"..

Hari ini berlalu dengan penuh rasa terkilan...But ...may be ini yang terbaik buat kami...Allah juga yang Maha Mengetahui...Hidup mesti diteruskan...

Introducing the two heroes and my J-Lo...

Jeng...jeng...jeng....here are my two heroes and my J-Lo....sorry le lambat bebenor teman upload..sorry to my beloved anak sedara ..gambar dia ngan the geng tu blurrrr le plak..."Tsyam jgn marah mama ye...yang ambik gambar tu papa..."he..he...

My eldest son is 12 years old...and the brother is 7..and J-Lo is going to be 2 this August...The eldest one loves drawing ..(in fact I think he is very talented)..but academically..always bring back a "frightening result"...he..he..he wants to be an investigator (ala..ala FBI gitu...)..by the way FBI bukan ke must be very good in math and science and not "drawing"...he..he..

Second one..very confident...hate drawing but loves math...admire Era Fazira...he once mentioned he wanted to marry Era Fazira...but lately he has changed his mind...he wants to marry an english girl (orang putih)...wow! international le my menantu nanti!! his ambition is to become a scientist...

My latest collection...suka bergaya....my prediction is that her "maintenance cost" akan tinggi nanti...he..he...

Alhamdulillah diatas pemberianNya ....

Nota: date kat gambar tu silap...I lupa adjust kat camera...ini gambar terkini

Cuti Cuti Malaysia...

Just came back from Kuching..Went there to visit my sister and of course for a vacation..cuti sekolah le katakan..Thank you to my beloved sister and her hubby..We enjoyed our stay there especially the "nasi ayam steam" and the "Tea -C Special" (betul ke spelling ni?)..Ari ni pun dok teringat lagi... Our visit to Elephant tu pun best..Sorry kalau membuatkan umah you all yang ala ala anjung seri tu betukar jadi tongkang pecah..

Thank you gak to my hubby (the main sponsor) for this trip..Muga Allah murahkan rezeki lagi and next time bole pegi jalan jauh sikit..he..he..Last but not least thank you to Air Asia yang kekal ngan theme "now everybody can fly"..he..he...tapi letih le..cam naik bus plak...jgn marah..kritik bukan tanda tak suka..he..he..

Nanti le ..I will upload gambar gambar yang menarik especially my two heroes and cousin diaorang yang montel tu..and not to forget of course gambar my J-Lo...he..he..tunggu...

The Final Say...

The final decision has been made. They will not provide us with the financial afidavit based on two reasons :

1) Course offered and course code sama.

2) Dah ada staff yang pegi to that university before.

They still want us to go to NZ. Well..both of us actually dah tak berharap because this morning dapat lagi another reply from one of the universities kat sana yang supervisor dah tak available. kita orang pun dah letih dok menerangkan benda yang sama (masalah nak dapatkan supervisor)...

Another point, as we mentioned earlier cam mana le nak dapatkan course code yang berbeza.. and macam mana le nak fulfil requirement no 2 tu...how many staff yang dianggap ramai..tak de la plak circular cite bab ni...he he...

Conclusion yang dibuat:

1) Nak dapatkan scholar macam kes meminang puteri gunung ledang...syarat syarat yang di imposekan memang dasat...Hang Tuah pun bole confuse...

2) Kami ni hanyalah mentimun...(refer to Karam Singh Waria kalau blurr)

3) Kami dah boring yang amat amat....dgn "kun -fayakun " policy.

4) Jangan ikut arahan...we were informed earlier we have to go by July..and we need to buat all preparations...kami yang menurut perintah telah buat semua arrangement yang perlu including selling all the three cars...sop..sop..sop...(sedihnya)...

5) Pinjam kata-kata Era Fazira "Kami/saya pasrah dengan apa yang terjadi"...

6) Sekiranya ada rezeki kami untuk study..Allah pasti bukakan jalan ....

Nota: anybody ada keta kuda untuk bagi kami pinjam !!!

Licence to Kill...

Kalau lah I ada licence to kill...haaa...there are 3 in my list now.....OR ..how I wish I ada any magic spell ...I nak tukar yang 3 ni jadi PETI AIS...rasanya lebih berfaedah lagi....David Copperfield where are you!!!!!!......

Kring....Kring...Kring..

Selamat Hari Guru! Thank you to those yang sms me especially to all my ex-students. Terasa la gak diri dihargai ..he..he..thanks again.

But ada satu unexpected called ...well..actually I still dok besedih hati about that lousy reason...out of the sudden..I got this called..macam tau je I dok runsing...he..he

To the caller , banyak yang nak cite sebenornya...dalam kepala dah plan nak cite semua..but when I heard all the good news from ur side..I decided not to talk about it...entah le..rasanya that's me always hiding my frustration or may be I really appreciate ur effort and do not want to spoil the conversation...the truth is I am happy with your achievement in life..really am happy. The following song is dedicated to you and thank you for ur "Doa".

Memories
Like the corners of my mind
Misty water-colored memories
Of the way we were
Scattered pictures
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
For the way we were
Can it be that it was all so simple then?
Or has time re-written every line?
If we had the chance to do it all again
Tell me, would we? could we?
Memories, may be beautiful and yet
Whats too painful to remember
We simply choose to forget
So its the laughter
We will remember
Whenever we remember
The way we were..
The way we were...

Pelanduk selalu lupa jerat...Jerat tak lupa pelanduk!!!

I have received a phone call today informing that the "person incharge" refused to provide me with the financial afidavit eventhough my appeal has been endorsed by the Big Boss.. wow! my first reaction of course to ask the big question "WHY"..Failed to get clear explanation from the caller ..I then decided to "discuss" the matter personally with the person incharge . My "niat" during that time was just to get a better or clearer explanation..and to find out in case I have missed something out ...that make the financial afidavit cannot be given to me..that's all!!

To cut the long story short...managed to talk to that person ...but until now I don't understand and I cannot see the rationale of the decision not to provide me with the relevant documents.. The only reason given to me is that my offer letter given by the Australian university stated the same course code as my husband...the most funniest reason on earth!..

Want to know why it becomes the funniest or may be the lousiest reason on earth?Of course we will be offered the same course and course code BECAUSE both of us applying to do our PhD in the same university and in the same department..

Abih nak buat camno...we are in the same faculty here..definitely our application too will be to the same faculty in Australia..even if we apply to any of the local universities pun our application will go through the same faculty and we will get the SAME course code...

I did ask that person few times..is this the real reason or ada masalah lain...but that person insisted that the same course code tu yang masalah....then I asked...what about others yang dah pegi ke that university (to the same department)...of course all of their offer letters stated the same course code as mine......and is there any written rule yang cakap husband and wife tak leh pegi sama department...emmm ...no answer for this two questions

Eventhough I have tried my very best to explain..I can understand my situation..I am nobody..saya hanyalah seorang staff yang mempunyai impian untuk study, dgn harapan ilmu yang dapat tu dapat plak dishare ngan anak bangsa sendiri...that's all

That phone conversation lead me to think about the following issues:

1) I am not clever enough to rationalise the reason given to me.

2) What if my husband tu tak ada relationship ngan I..adakah betul course code yang sama masih jadi persoalan penting kat sini?

3) Sekiranya government allocate the scholarship to bangsa asing...adakah that bangsa asing yang dipertanggungjawabkan akan memberi beribu alasan...atau they will use the money and sponsored as many of their bangsa without making things so difficult. Maaf tak ada niat nak create any isu pekauman here but again I strongly feel I have to at least point out this scenario..

4) I was 19 or 20 when I did my first degree in UK...very young...I have experienced being sponsored by the government...but to tell the truth..during that time kami tak banyak menerima "pesanan"-"pesanan" about how lucky we were or how unlucky others (yang tak ditaja)...but I still remember how "kecut perut " we were and how we have to struggle to get our degree...even without "pesanan-pesanan" ..all of us (my batch) managed to get our degree and came back to give our service here...

5) Now bila dah tua... I percaya most of us or all of us punyai lebih rasa tanggungjawab...kita lebih faham and lebih pandai menilai erti penggunaan duit rakyat..At the same time, I can also understand doing PhD is not an easy task...rasanya I am crystal clear about the difficulties of getting PhD...and I am not an excellent student before...very average...that's why I cannot promise anything but the most I can say I will try my best..

and I also percaya semua pemegang biasiswa punya harapan yang sama ...get their PhD ...kalau ada yang gagal I strongly believe bukan itu yang diaorang plan or nak...so why should we blamed them...why not we look at the other side of it...may be they failed to get their PhD BUT I percaya proses pencarian ilmu itu tetap berlangsung and ada added value dalam diri setiap mereka...

6) and finally...pesanan orang tua tua (stated as the title) suddenly floating in my head...yang tak faham tu ...bole pegi tanya nenek nenek yang masih ada...or may be u can contact Karam Sigh Waria...he..he...

Nota: posting ni tidak berniat atau bermaksud untuk tunjuk pandai...or memburukkan sesiapa...just that I feel down and I rasa I need to express what's in my head and heart..thats all!